Life with Todd

Okay, lets just get to the point.
I write A LOT about dogs.
Our dogs.
But why not?
They're our family, our furkids, what we live for.
SO GET OVER IT! :)

I'm just going to kind of update what life has been like since we added Mr. Todd into our family.
One word, CRAZY!
Okay two, crazy and AMAZING!
Todd is a NUTBAG!
He has energy, spunk, curiosity, love, fire....
He's everything you want in an Australian Cattle http://www.akc.org/breeds/australian_cattle_dog/index.cfm <--here's a little information on the breed if you want to learn more about it!

Him and Leia LOOOOVE each other.

He HATES swimming, so Broc threw him in the river at City Creek Canyon!

                                                                         

Broc playing with him and Boss (our friend Cam's dog) I love this picture

He was patient and let me draw eyebrows on him haha :)

 

Like I said, Todd is an amazing addition to our family. He loves to stare out windows, cuddle, meet everyone and every dog, and he is just bubbling with personality! Even as I'm typing this, he's snuggled up right against me. We love you Todd, and we are BEYOND happy to have you in our life. xoxoxoxox mommy and daddy

From adoption, to abandoned, to foster, to death, to adoption.

I now work at UAAC, The Utah Animal Adoption Center. I love it, for the most part (some attitudes around their could be changed) but the fact that I am working to give animals a 2nd chance is BEYOND fullfilling for my soul.
The only problem is, I can foster and I get one free adoption.
That's when Gramps came into my life.
Gramps was adopted from UAAC around 9 to 10 years ago.
Then a month ago, he was abandoned, left for dead basically.
In THE WORST condition an owner could possibly leave a dog in.
And I fell head over heels with him!

He was blind, deaf, and 15 years old. But he always had a smile on his face.
He had the attitude of an old man, he was a stubborn man :)
We only had him for 2ish weeks, then he could barely stand, poop, eat, just have a normal day.
So I, along with the staff at UAAC, decided it was time for him to go.


I was devistated.
I've had 3 dogs die this year, I've watched all 3 go.
BUT, they are in heaven with my Sunny, waiting for us to come meet them, in the heaven dogs exsist.

But there was a silver lining in all of this.
And his name is Todd.
He was brought in a couple of days before Gramps died, and we KNEW he was perfect for us.
He is about 8 month to a year old Australian Cattle Dog
25 pounds
Cute as can freaking be.
We. Love. Todd.
He has made me realize that Gramps wanted me and Broc to be happy, and trust me, we are!
I can't wait to have MANY MANY years with Broc, Leia, and Todd, one happy family.

We miss you Gramps.
We love you Todd, welcome to our family :)

Lets just get this over with!

I've been wanting to blog more, but haven't had the damnest thing to write about!
Then, just out of the blue, I realized I did.
And it's serious.
And if you don't have something nice to say, don't say anything at all.
Because this is another "harder" post for me to write.
But there are people out there I KNOW need to here it.

........I have HPV. And Cervical Cancer

If you don't know what HPV is, how you can get it (or prevent it) or just need a brush up on your STD knowledge, http://www.cdc.gov/std/hpv/stdfact-hpv.htm will help you.
I've known about having HPV since August of 2010.
I don't even think my family knows about it.
My husband does, and he's find with it.

JUST TO CLEAR THE AIR, I am not a disgusting deformed woman in ANY way, I am perfectly healthy and "normal looking" and managing my diseases very well.
If ANYONE out there is offened by this, don't hate, just exit off of my blog and let everyone else continue onto reading. This is a hard subject to bring up, but I KNOW people out there need and want to hear this.
Men can get this too, so don't be stupid and immature, boys! ;)

Now, lets get back to business.
I'm sure whoever, if anyone is still reading this, have lots of questions. I'll bring up a few I've had the few people that know about this have asked me.

Q. Did Broc give it to you? And can he get it himself?
A. No. I had one other sexual partner before I met Broc. People, don't act perfect and think I'm some whore or something. It was a VERY serious relationship I was in. There are people out there who understand. Broc knows, he doesn't care at all, and he respects and loves me still. NOW to answer the 2nd part; Yes. Broc can get it from me. He DOES NOT have it though, thank God.

Q. Does it hurt you?
A. Yes, very much. Especially since I also have cervical cancer as well. I had a small little surgery in Septemberish time where they removed the cancerous part of it...THE WORST pain I've ever been in. And it still hurts to this day, and always will.

Q. Can you have children?
A. Probably not. I have like an 23% chance to EVER even getting CLOSE to getting pregnant. Right now in our lives, that's a positive thing for us haha. But in the future, it might be tough. We are BIG BELIEVERS in adoption though. Broc AND my father were both adopted. That's 2 men in my life that if they were with their birth parents still, I might not even exsist.

Q. How can I prevent getting HPV?
A. Safe sex. I know this will sound stupid, but if you are considering having sex with someone, you BOTH should get tested and make sure you're all safe and clear! Also, condoms, always.

I'm sorry to anyone who thinks this post is disgusting and not appropriate, but really, it's not THAT big of a deal. I have an amazing life still, and I've learned from my mistakes. I hope whoever out there is reading is educated and enlightened by this. Please don't think of me as a horrible, disgusting person. I'm still the same Haley Carol all of you know and love :)

Catch up List

Here's what happened since I've been on the blogging world:
*Broc and I have been married a year and a month now! Yay!
*New Apartment in the Avenues, super cute.
*Got rid of Reginald and Mortimere....it's okay, they needed a change.
*Got 3 new dogs though! Leia, Xena, and Sheldon Cooper
*I turned 21 yesterday, hella! And a got a rabbit name Prim Rose
*We had our Toyota Camry taken away....so now we're walking/bus/frontrunner people
*Broc is working full time at Artic Circle , and training to become a manager!
*I quit Petco because they cut my hours big time, and a girl harrassed the crap out of me that made me completely miserable
*I am currently looking for a job, but doing yard work and other small jobs for money
*I am grooming from home now though! And it is super fun.

All-in-all, life is weird, but fun! We're happily married, working hard, and living life to the fullest.
What I have learned over this year is to trust a few, love a lot, and hold on tight and never let go to the few things you have.

Happy New Year.....

The term "Happy New Year" was completely ascue from what Broc and I experienced this last week of the year 2011.
Right now as I am typing out this blog post, I'm getting sick to my stomach and feeling the emptiness creep back into my heart and my mind.
My puppies are gone.
There's no bringing them back.
I know that.
I accept that.
But I sure as hell DO NOT want that.

Thursday night, my dear Scarlett started getting all of the signs of Parvo disease.
If you don't know what Parvo is http://dogparvosymptoms.net/ there you go.
It's horrible.
It's disgusting.
It broke my heart.

Friday, Koda was hit with this hell of a disease.
They were both gone by Sunday.
It was mine and Broc's choice to put them down, but they were honestly better off dead.
They lost SO MUCH weight,
so much light in their eyes,
so much will to live,
and I saw it all.
Looking at my babies, knowing that I only have minutes to be with them
I held them in my arms, listening to their soft, staggered breathing,
telling them that they're going to be all better soon and that mommy and daddy love them.

I told them sorry.

Sorry....that's all I could think of right before they left.

Sorry to Scarlett for spanking you when you peed in the house the night we got you,
Sorry to Koda for popping him on the nose when he didn't want a bath.
Sorry for everything wrong.
Sorry for not being able to control this horrid disease that hit them quickly and without fail.

I loved those dogs.
I hope everyone and everything out there knows I do.
I loved those dogs more than anything in this world, and I would've given ANYTHING for them to be alive.

But that wasn't God's plan.
Whoever and whatever he is.
If he even exsists.
But we'll discuss that later.

You honestly don't know what sadness is until you hold your sick puppies in your arms while they're put to sleep.
Knowing that's the right thing to do, but why now?
They're young, full of life.

While I was sitting there waiting for the vet to come in to euthanize them, I thought.
Take me instead. I honestly thought that.
Give me their sickness, I'll battle through it.
Let them be happy and healthy.
What could I sell or how could I get the money to treat them?
What did I do to loose these dogs?
I took SUCH good care of them.
The best food, the best collars, leashes, treats, kennels, everything was perfect.
I thought,
my mind racing.
About to grab my dogs and run.
Find somewhere, Narnia? Hogwarts?
Somewhere unreal that would rescue my dogs.

Then the vet came in.

And that was that.

That was my New Year's.
That was Broc's New Year's.

R.I.P. Scarlett my "pwetty girlfwiend" and Koda Koda's my "ting-ting"
You still have a VERY big place in my heart, and I don't want you to leave it.
Stay in my heart, help me through life.
Because you changed me, and I'm sure you changed Broc.
We will always love you, talk about you, think about you,
You are remembered.


XOXOXO mommy and daddy.