Just another romantic story.

A couple of days ago, I had to work. And Broc worked. I didn't have a car. Broc did.
I called Broc's mom to give me a ride. She forgot. Oh shit. Well, I have a bike.
So yes people, I biked in 40 degree weather at 2 in the afternoon to Petco.
It sucked, to say the least.
So I got to work on time, freezing though, and almost barfed. I called Broc and told him.
He was so proud of me.
So was my boss. She gave me employee of the month for that.
I think.
When I got home that night (Broc picked me up. In the car) this happened

and this

and then some of this....

I have an amazing husband. He understands me, and he knows what to do for me and when to do it. The little fancy dinner at home, sweats, flowers, and most of all a CLEANED UP HOUSE was enough for me to realize that he was proud of me and loved me.

And then I realized biking to work wasn't so bad after all....

Lists are nice.

I read Kelsey's post and decided to make a list about me and Broc as well....because I love lists myself, and I just feel like blogging today.

* Broc and I met at a high school Prom. Call it stupid, I thought it was awesome!
* Our first dance was at Boondocks by his car, listening to "As long as I Live" by Foreinger (which would later result in that becoming our first dance at our wedding), and eating m&ms. That's where he first touched my behind too......
* Our first date was trying to find Gravity Hill in Salt Lake, buying slim jims and smokes at a gas station, running through sprinklers at Muller Park Jr. High, and then later having our first kiss in the grafetti tunnel next to the Bountiful temple...WHAT A NIGHT!!!
* We used to talk on the phone all day, everyday, before we were dating and just best friends, while he was in the hospital when his colon was removed.
* He's the first person I met with Chrons' Disease. After meeting him, it opened up my eyes to the Chrons' world, and it's not an uncommon disease.
* I feel like a celebrity around his family and friends. Everyone goes "oh so you're the amazing Haley Carol we hear about everyday! I'm so happy Broc found you"......I am too.
* Broc tells me later on in our relationship that he is amazed that his colostomy bag doesn't bother me, and he is so grateful I think it's a different kind of beauty instead of an inperfection.
* When he proposed, it was Halloween night, and we were watching my favorite movie Saw III. I'm gothic and dark, I know. I've come to deal with that.
* When I'd come visit him during school, we would sleep on a TWIN mattress on the floor of his Russian roommate's room....it was disgusting, but totally worth it.

    I love my Christian Broc Cozzens.

Gotta be Grateful

Well, I read my best friend, KateLyn Wall's blog post, and realized that I also have been complaining a lot lately. I've been complaining about lack of money, food, going out, and just basically everything, even though I have SO MUCH that I should be happy for. I'm listing out things I'm grateful for too, so thanks for the idea KT!

1. First off, I'm grateful for my amazing husband Christian Broc Cozzens. I am SO happy that I am married to this amazing man, and I can't believe how lucky I am to have fallen in love so much that I want to marry him at a young age. We've endured more than most people know about, and I am so grateful for each and every one of those experiences. They have made us a strong couple, and I don't know who I would be without my husband. He understands me, is patient and kind with me, and loves me like nobody will EVER understand.

2. I am thankful for my job at Petco. Seriously, this job is incredible! It's my dream job, grooming dogs all day everyday is the dream job for me. Hanging around 5 of the closest coworkers I have ever had brings me complete joy. I love having 'girl talk' everytime I go to work. And some of them have turned out to be some of my best friends. This job gives me opportunity to grow as a groomer, person, and as a lover of all of God's creatures. This job gives me and my husband sercurity with money and knowing I won't lose this job, and GREAT discounts on any supplies needed for our pets at home :)

3. Which leads me to #3. I am SO grateful for my 2 dogs Reggie and Morty, and 2 kitties Aldous (pronounced All-dus) and Rosie. They are some of the sweetest animals I have ever known, and being me, I've known and owned a lot of animals. My kittens are even some of the sweetest best tempered kittens I have ever met! I call Aldous by his name and he comes to me. Rosie almost died, which was a very traumatizing couple of weeks in my life, holding her 9 ounce body, hoping she makes it just another day. I am eternally grateful for 4 kids already. They are the best kids in teh world.

4. I am grateful for Broc's parents: Chris and Jan Cozzens. They are like a mom and a dad to me, when mine don't decide to step in, they do. They have helped us in SO many ways, from letting us live at their house until Broc was back on his feet, to giving us a hearty dinner and leftovers every Sunday night, or when something like a birthday party or special event occurs. Jan has been more of a mom to me than I ever thought she would be. She's helped me during all of the rough times that Broc and I have been through, and has treated me like a daughter when it comes to rides, taking me out for hair appts. and mani/pedis, and talking to me on the phone or over lunch when I've needed someone there for me during times of confusion. So thank you Jan and Chris, especially Jan. I love you both so much.

5. I am thankful that my husband is alive and healthy, thanks to Doctors, surgery, and medications. He has suffered SO MUCH in his lifetime, more than most people our age can ever even imagine and endure. He has almost died, that terrifies me. But knowing that because of educated Doctors and modern day medication and technology has saved Broc's life, I will be forever and eternally grateful for that.

6. As of right now, I am graeful that Broc and I have a car. Ever since I got in that accident driving the Altima, we haven't had a car to get us around and that was miserable. Going to two jobs, driving the boys around (the boys are our dogs), running errands, and just everyday driving, not having a car was super sucky. I am grateful that we had enough money saved up in the bank to get ourselves a super nice car that Broc loves and I barely get to drive haha. So thank you Toyota on Highway 89 for getting us an amazing car that we never thought we could have and are BOTH VERY grateful for.

Well those 6 things are the top 6 in my life of thankfulness right now, and I kinda have to get ready for work! I hope anyone who reads this will think of all the things they are grateful for, and post something on their blog as well. This post has definately made my attitude a hell of a lot better. HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!

Remembering Idaho

Last September, my mother forced me to go back, yet again, to BYU Idaho to finish my associate's degree in vocal performance, even though I explained to her that I wanted to stay in Utah, move to Ogden with Broc and attend Weber State.
My mom told me 'not to throw my life away with a boy I'm just dating.
Little did she know I was madly in love with this boy and planning on marrying him.
Did I still throw my life away, mom? I think not. Broc IS my life.
ANYWAY, so I toughed out another semester (and if you haven't been to BYU I in the winter semester, you have NO idea how cold and miserable it is, especially if cold isn't your thing) and got engaged RIGHT in the middle of it (Halloween to be exact) which made the semester even harder.

All I could think about was Broc.
I was spending all my time and money finding ways to get home and see him EVERY SINGLE weekend.
Crying myself to sleep every night because my pillow smelled like him, and I was using his baby blanket to keep me warm during the cold nights.
Waiting with baited breathe, staring at my phone for a text or a call from my loving and very missed fiance.
Crying everytime we had to say goodbye, and telling him to call me AS SOON as he can, even if it's 45 seconds later.
Reading his letters and poems over and OVER and OVER again, heart breaking every word he wrote to me.

Then FINALLY, I went home the final weekend, brought Broc back to Rexburg with me, and left for good 3 days later....thanking God that I would never return to that school, and even if I did, I wouldn't be alone. I'd be married, and there would be no way anyone could tear us apart and make rules and regulations for our relationship.
You know what I just realized......? I HATED dating Broc.
Not because of him, not in the least bit! Because we were told how to date, how to be engaged, what to do, where to do it, and how. For EVERY LITTLE THING we did together. And now I am beyond grateful that every night I am able to spend it having a 'sleep over' with my best friend, and waking up to him every morning, knowing that he isn't going anywhere.