Song I wrote for Broc (by Paper Lanterns)

I wrote this song with Danny (my little brother) while I was engaged to Broc. Broc, like I've said, has Chrons Disease. Which has led to Colon cancer, and having his whole large intestine and part of his small intestine removed last year (2010). He's dealt with so many more health issues that I could just probably write a whole 'nother blog post about, but anyway. He's a warrior and THE strongest person I know, so the least I could or can do for him is write a song to and about him, and to anyone else out there who struggles with a life long sickness or disease that is incurable. Please enjoy:

"You wake up in the morning,
already angry at the world.
The sickness overcomes the spirit,
so who to blame it on today?
You look up at the One you've trusted the most,
the One who gave you what you didn't ask for.

You feel like you've done nothing wrong,
but you're taking the blame.
You're being punished for nothing,
you know.

There are millions of excuses,
that don't add up to the one real reason.
None of it makes sense in your head,
you look up again and ask 'are You there?'
That silent answer comes to no surprise,
you get it everyday.
Then you ask 'when do I stop the fight?
will it never go away?'

You feel like you've done nothing wrong,
but you're taking the blame.
You're being punished for nothing,
you know."

Kelsey my twin saves my wedding photos….and every other photo.

My brother, DanielSon, has a girlfriend named Kelsey.
She's basically my best friend. I talk to her about almost everything, and we go exploring together. No big deal. We rock.
She's a younger, better dressed version of me.
Also, skinner. I hate her for that!!!!
Anyway, she retook mine and Broc's "groomals" and they're amazing. She's an amazing photographer. And she's only 16!!!!

Thanks again Kelsey-Bo-Belsey!!! I lovers you!!!

Cool Things no one else's husbands have…or don't have….

Broc has Chron's Disease. Whatever, he's still rad.
He's missing A LOT of body parts, which actually makes him really cool!
Like for example: he's missing his whole large intestine due to Colon Cancer that was found in 2010, also, have of his small intestine was POW during that surgery….RIP Broc's innards.
He poops in a bag. On his stomach. And you can see a piece of his bright red intestine. And poop…but that's okay too! I'm so used to it.
I love all of Broc! And the lack thereof I suppose.

I love the way his skin smells after he's just taken a shower.
I love his curly black hair that he lets me do on his lazy OR super important days.
I love his crazy sense of humor, and he makes anyone and everyone laugh.
I love his sense of style, he's like a British rockstar that loves tennis shoes….
I love his hat collection, and his v neck/t shirt collection.
I love that I can talk to him about anything and nothing I ever say will ever bother him.
I love that he is my best friend and my lover at the same time.
I love waking up to him every morning, and going to bed with him every night.
I love coming home after a LOOOOONG day of work and seeing his huge "Edward Eyes" and sweet smile accompanied by his gorgeous dimples.
I love that he isn't afraid to be himself and doesn't care what anyone thinks of him.

Broc is basically empty inside to help make room for his huge heart, and I love that about him. I love him, inside and out :)

Just to catch up…..

I was married to my husband on April 18, 2011 after a long 6 months of waiting and planning and waiting and planning…..we finally ended up getting married at 10:30 at night at my parent's LDS church by their bishop Bro. Tullis. Even though it was just me, Broc, and our families, it was still the most magical thing in the world and I am so happy we were married that night and started our lives together. Our reception was on the 21st, and it was gorgeous….for what I had to work with haha. I couldn't be happier right now, seriously! That is my beautiful wedding ring that my husband costume designed himself for me. He proposed to me on Halloween night, which is my favorite Holiday so I was quite thrilled! Plus I had NO CLUE he was going to propose! He gave me this ring on New Year's Eve because custom making a ring takes FOREVER!!! I had no idea what it was going to look like, but it's way beyond my expectations! I love my husband so much. He's amazing, he's smart, he's patient, he's everything I could've hoped for in a husband and then some :) he's my best friend, my love, my soul mate, my Brocy :) I love you forever and ever, babe!!