Cole was 9 days late. And let me tell you, that was HELL! I was so ready to have Cole, mentally and emotionally, but not physically. I wasn't dilating, and turns out, LDS Hospital's policy is that first time moms will not be induced until they are EXACTLY 41 weeks, or if there is a medical concern, they will induce you before.
So, after 3 non stress tests, one emergency trip to LDS for fainting in my apartment one day, and hours of tears and stress later, I had an induction date; June 12th at 7 pm.
When June 12th finally came up, I was freaking out! I couldn't wait for 7 to come around. I spent the day cleaning, going through our hospital bags, and my mom even took me and Addie Mae out for pedicures right before! 6 o'clock rolls around, I get a phone call from LDS Hospital.
"Someone went into labor and your room was taken. We will call you when a room opens up."
............I sobbed.
For hours.
I couldn't believe that I had been waiting all of this time, and an HOUR before I'm supposed to go in, my room gets taken by someone lucky enough to go into labor and have their baby. The hospital told us to get some sleep, and that they would call me when a room opened up.
Like I was getting any freaking sleep.
I was now a week past due, and I had to wait even LONGER to have my baby.
Luckily for Broc, I cried myself to sleep that night. Then my phone rings at 3:30 in the morning.
"A room has opened up for you. We'll see you soon!"
Broc and I got in the car and HAULED to the Cozzens' house to drop off Todd, then drove to LDS as fast as we could, ran into labor and delivery, and FINALLY, had a room.
Immediately, they put an I.V. in me because I tested positive for strep B etc. and put me on fluids because I was very dehydrated. Next they gave me a pill that dissolved in my mouth to help soften my cervix, and told us to sleep. Naturally, Broc passed out. I was up most of the night, just listening to my son's heart beat, and realizing I would hopefully be seeing him in a couple of hours.
That's when the labor pains started, and boy were they AWFUL!
But, I wanted to fight through them as long as I could because I wanted to have a natural birth.
That didn't last long though, 4 hours into my labor, I was sobbing because the pain was so awful and I couldn't handle it anymore. At that point, the nurse told me I was getting an epidural, and I didn't argue one bit.
Getting an epidural, for me, was hell as well. My contractions were so bad at that point, when they told me to lean forward and stay still, my whole body was shaking from the pain and exhaustion I was going through, I basically gave myself a full blown panic attack.
Mind you, I have a high pain tolerance, so I was quite embarrassed that I couldn't deal with this as well as I expected myself to.
Finally, after trying to get the epidural in twice, the nurse gave me a sedative, laid me down on my side, and I guess they got the epidural in much quicker and easier, I don't remember though :) I was definitely drugged.
Next was the catheter, more fluids, and more waiting.
8 more hours to be exact.
It was 11:00 pm that night when I was finally dilated enough for them to call Dr. Beckstead and have me start pushing.
Side note, if you ever need a good OB/Family Practitioner, I HIGHLY recommend Dr. Beckstead. He made my pregnancy and birthing process so positive and easy. I absolutely love this doctor.
So, after an hour and 10 minutes of pushing, there he was....
Cole Goulding Cozzens
9 pounds 2 ounces
21 1/2 inches long
THE MOST hair I have ever seen on a baby. Beautiful, black, thick.
Giant eyes, only cried for about 20 seconds.
Perfection.
I started to cry, my heart was so full of emotion I can't even explain, and the long 9 month and 9 day wait was finally over.
I looked over to Broc, he was sobbing. He turned towards me and hugged me tight and kissed my forehead, I was in heaven at that moment.
Cole Goulding was a surprise baby. We weren't planning on him, but he came.
And all I have to say is, I don't wish my life to be any different.
The love I feel for this baby is indescribable, it's the most perfect, selfless, fulfilling love I have ever felt. When I first saw my baby boy, I thought my heart was going to explode.
I look at him now, STILL, and my heart hurts with the love I have for him.
You do not know true love until you are a mother, and that is a FACT. Because it is unlike any love you have for a pet, family member, even your spouse, it is the most perfect feeling in the world.
Cole Goulding Cozzens, you are, without a doubt, the GREATEST thing that has ever happened to Broc and me. We are so happy you are here, and love starting this journey called parenting with you. You are loved by everyone in our families, and adored and fawned over by everyone we know. Nothing will ever make us happier. You are the love of our lives.
